Losing Something

Sometimes I think that when we lose something like a dream, title, or innocence, things that aren't tangible, we don't really grieve that loss or maybe we don't even know how.  Yet if we lose something physical, tangible, however insignificant or small it may be, when we see something actually being taken away we tend to grieve more and harder.  I think that most of the grieving done with the small or seemingly insignificant things is simply an overflow of the grieving we never really had with the bigger things in life; that we are weeping not really over the thing presently being taken away, but weeping the past things now finally presenting themselves in a physical way.  So when you just can't seem to get over the small losses of life you're not being a wimp or need to just get over it - sometimes you simply need to grieve the past losses, let the tears stream from your face and let them soften your heart and let the healing process begin.             

"Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in,
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

Let it slide,
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine
Until you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by,
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But I can not forget
The way I feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain,
Still remain
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain" 
- "Little Wonders" by Rob Thomas

Celebrate Forgiveness

Lord, gather me into Your holy temple where joy and gladness reign forever more and no grief or regret may overwhelm me.  Fill this weak vessel with Your joy that will strengthen me.  Calm my waterfall of emotion and bring them beside still waters; and restore my soul and restore unto me the joy of Your salvation.  May Your grace get a hold on me and never let me go, nor let me forget Your forgiveness; let me remember it in freedom from guilt and mourning but instead replace them with lavish feasting in Your presence.